Tired. How I dislike using this word! it practically means that i have no zest/energy for people and tasks that I am assigned. Ironically, it is this distaste for TIRED that makes me even more tired!

Cal is so tired that i have to complain about it here in my blog because i cant let people know that i am tired, definitely not my colleagues or my team mates because that do not better anythign. Yet I really wish that they know that i am tired, or rather burnt out, confusing isn't it. When he was with me for the past 3 years, i will always complain to him and only to him about my stress and tiredness, but not anymore now. now i seem to have to bear it all, SEEM hahaha.. cos DEARest is the one i will complain to now and best of all, He bears my burdens. (DEAREST is JESUS!)

I am most vulnerable when I am burnt out, phsyically and emotionally, thus i can do stupid things stupidly. Therefore I have to be remember to draw strenght from Jesus and not from pleasures of the world that are temporal. He has been faithful. He will carry me through when I run to him. I am starting to love running to Him, crying and complaing, sharing my joy..everything=)

Maybe i should reconsider deeply what my boss wrote to me as a birthday wish: LET LOOSE.
O talking about my birthday! i have the most memorable birthday this year! I had a super fun day.. will blog about it the next entry with pics!!