Tired. How I dislike using this word! it practically means that i have no zest/energy for people and tasks that I am assigned. Ironically, it is this distaste for TIRED that makes me even more tired!
Cal is so tired that i have to complain about it here in my blog because i cant let people know that i am tired, definitely not my colleagues or my team mates because that do not better anythign. Yet I really wish that they know that i am tired, or rather burnt out, confusing isn't it. When he was with me for the past 3 years, i will always complain to him and only to him about my stress and tiredness, but not anymore now. now i seem to have to bear it all, SEEM hahaha.. cos DEARest is the one i will complain to now and best of all, He bears my burdens. (DEAREST is JESUS!)
I am most vulnerable when I am burnt out, phsyically and emotionally, thus i can do stupid things stupidly. Therefore I have to be remember to draw strenght from Jesus and not from pleasures of the world that are temporal. He has been faithful. He will carry me through when I run to him. I am starting to love running to Him, crying and complaing, sharing my joy..everything=)
Maybe i should reconsider deeply what my boss wrote to me as a birthday wish: LET LOOSE.
O talking about my birthday! i have the most memorable birthday this year! I had a super fun day.. will blog about it the next entry with pics!!
22nd birthday so far.
My BPGH darlins.
Thanks for everything gals; organizing the dinner, doing the presents and the surprises... most of all, your love and appreciation for me. You gals had made this nite a special one, with people peeking at us cos of the stir you created, smiles.
Btw you guys sang the loudest Brithday song i ever have.
I hope I will be able to be a blessing to you as much as you have been a blessing to me gals. =)
My Uni Jie Mei.
Cal is so tired that i have to complain about it here in my blog because i cant let people know that i am tired, definitely not my colleagues or my team mates because that do not better anythign. Yet I really wish that they know that i am tired, or rather burnt out, confusing isn't it. When he was with me for the past 3 years, i will always complain to him and only to him about my stress and tiredness, but not anymore now. now i seem to have to bear it all, SEEM hahaha.. cos DEARest is the one i will complain to now and best of all, He bears my burdens. (DEAREST is JESUS!)
I am most vulnerable when I am burnt out, phsyically and emotionally, thus i can do stupid things stupidly. Therefore I have to be remember to draw strenght from Jesus and not from pleasures of the world that are temporal. He has been faithful. He will carry me through when I run to him. I am starting to love running to Him, crying and complaing, sharing my joy..everything=)
Maybe i should reconsider deeply what my boss wrote to me as a birthday wish: LET LOOSE.
O talking about my birthday! i have the most memorable birthday this year! I had a super fun day.. will blog about it the next entry with pics!!
an angel dropped byy `]]
7:03 AM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
BP present to Cal.. super touch!!!
22nd birthday so far.
My BPGH darlins.
Thanks for everything gals; organizing the dinner, doing the presents and the surprises... most of all, your love and appreciation for me. You gals had made this nite a special one, with people peeking at us cos of the stir you created, smiles.
Btw you guys sang the loudest Brithday song i ever have.
I hope I will be able to be a blessing to you as much as you have been a blessing to me gals. =)
My Uni Jie Mei.
Thanks for such a great time we had that nite. Despite my unavailability often, you gals continue to remember me and try to connect with me with the same familiarity. I really appreciate all your friendship babes.
Crystal: I am so so glad I am back in your life again... to hear those hilarious espisodes that happen in your life daily! (You still make me laugh with no image) Most importantly, i am really glad we can clink like before. thanks for making that effort.
Darlin: DARLIN!! thank you so much for organizing this gathering for me!!! Its not easy i know. thanks for the time and effort to get people. Hope you and your happiness find each other soon.smiles..
Mei Mei: Mei thanks for coming down, you are always making an effort for everyone. Do let me know the details for the gathering with the whoever ya.. *wink*
Da Jie: You wasnt able to make it initally but thanks for making the changes to be down. tho i enjoyed your singing lots, i wish you could be involved in our converstion (tho bimbotic at many times) more.. smiles.
Jie meis! remember our date ya! love ya!!!!
an angel dropped byy `]]
9:22 AM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
He is a very interesting guy. really! He brings his grandmother to cut her hair, he buys groceries home, I have seen him in the same shirt for almost a year. He eats the same thing for almost a year. BEst of all.. his eyes never wonder, thats amazes me, and differentiates him from many other guys.
I wish i could know him more. i am blogging whatever thats come to my mind now as i just accidentally deleted a post which took me 2 hours to write. Because of congnitive dissonance, I thought i better have written something down today to make myself feel better. hahaha..
I wish i could know him more. i am blogging whatever thats come to my mind now as i just accidentally deleted a post which took me 2 hours to write. Because of congnitive dissonance, I thought i better have written something down today to make myself feel better. hahaha..
an angel dropped byy `]]
11:53 AM
Friday, June 09, 2006
I know that i need to have all these thoughts written down because they mean so much to me. and the only way to make sure i have these thoughts written down well is through blogging- people are reading my blog and i want to keep a decent blog!
I have not blog for a long long time, but i will blog today because of LS- because she is so so important to me...
She is wise yet humble.
She is full of grace and wit. (she was a very successful lawyer..)
She is gentle yet firm.
She lectures me and comforts me.
She knows my darkest secret and my sweetest dream
She bears my nonsense and witnesses my prideful side- the really ugly side of me. I behaved like a child so many times when i was with her, yet she is ever so patient with me still.
She shares my struggles no matter how big or small they are.
She is like a mother to me
I appreciate her tremendously, yet i seldom tell her so, as compared to how often i express my love to other frens of mine.
I yearn to get much of her attention yet i am always the quieter one when she is around, all because i konw others also want a part of her.
I desire a larger place in her heart, yet i feel so inadequate. Hence i am learning to accept a lower place than desired in people's hearts, especially hers. However i will continue to reserve a very special place for her.. all because of who she is.
We share great age-gap, big status and background differences. Yet in god's special ways, we have established a special friendship. the most special part of it is we love each other in a deep yet humble and quiet ways. She fast with me when i needed fasting though she was ill; she put in all her soul heart and mind to impart to me knowledge..etc. I really do appreciate her and love her.
A very special lady whom i know i will thank God for now and always. She will definitely be in my thank-you list for my wedding.. smiles
ooo... I just attended dearest darlin jean(jean is such a dear!!!) and luke's wedding last saturday. And en was back too. Hence last week was fantastic for me.
but i am currently emotionally and physically drained because of the netball competition, training, church and work. please do pardon me for my unavailibility.
I have not blog for a long long time, but i will blog today because of LS- because she is so so important to me...
She is wise yet humble.
She is full of grace and wit. (she was a very successful lawyer..)
She is gentle yet firm.
She lectures me and comforts me.
She knows my darkest secret and my sweetest dream
She bears my nonsense and witnesses my prideful side- the really ugly side of me. I behaved like a child so many times when i was with her, yet she is ever so patient with me still.
She shares my struggles no matter how big or small they are.
She is like a mother to me
I appreciate her tremendously, yet i seldom tell her so, as compared to how often i express my love to other frens of mine.
I yearn to get much of her attention yet i am always the quieter one when she is around, all because i konw others also want a part of her.
I desire a larger place in her heart, yet i feel so inadequate. Hence i am learning to accept a lower place than desired in people's hearts, especially hers. However i will continue to reserve a very special place for her.. all because of who she is.
We share great age-gap, big status and background differences. Yet in god's special ways, we have established a special friendship. the most special part of it is we love each other in a deep yet humble and quiet ways. She fast with me when i needed fasting though she was ill; she put in all her soul heart and mind to impart to me knowledge..etc. I really do appreciate her and love her.
A very special lady whom i know i will thank God for now and always. She will definitely be in my thank-you list for my wedding.. smiles
ooo... I just attended dearest darlin jean(jean is such a dear!!!) and luke's wedding last saturday. And en was back too. Hence last week was fantastic for me.
but i am currently emotionally and physically drained because of the netball competition, training, church and work. please do pardon me for my unavailibility.
an angel dropped byy `]]
8:18 AM